I really did mean it when I said two months ago that I wanted to blog more…. just not sure now why I never did.
I thought a good place to start would be to post a reflection I gave at a Void event a few months ago. The context of the event was an exploration of the confession of belief, and when I spent some time thinking about my own beliefs, I realized that I already represent my beliefs in the many places I describe myself and my values online, and perhaps most specifically in online dating ads. I’m not ashamed of using online people meeting services – and so I’ve adapted my profile from match.com to read like a confession of belief.
T.S. Eliot is quoted as saying… “There is no life that is not lived in community. And no community not lived in praise of God” – T.S. Eliot
Likewise, I believe humans were created to be in relationships with each other.
I believe humor is important in life.
I believe it is important to put people at ease and allow them to be fully themselves when they are with me.
I believe simple things like fresh baked bread, hitting all the green lights, a freshly cleaned kitchen, good hold music, chipotle burritos, and the laughter of children should be cherished.
I believe there is great enjoyment to be had from the outdoors, fresh fruit, strong coffee, live music, and the occasional camping or hiking trip.
I believe in the value of things that are made by hand.
I believe in buying my furniture used.
I believe in hospitality and invite people into my home at every chance.
I believe in turning the lights off when I leave the room.
I believe I learn more from NPR than from KLove.
I believe in knitting my own sweaters.
I believe beer makes any conversation better. Add a firepit on a beautiful warm evening and I believe it might rival heaven.
I believe that music should speak to my spirit rather than only my ears.
I believe in surrounding myself with love, laughter, people, community and opportunities to give of my faith and blessings from God to others.
I believe the people in my life have helped me see myself more clearly, even when I’m not always fond of what I see.
I believe there is profound beauty in brokeness as well as in success.
I believe the joy as well as the heartache I’ve experienced in my life have made me who I am, and I believe I’m called to share myself with others regardless of what their experiences have been.
I have faith in a God that is bigger and more amazing than I’ll probably ever understand. And maybe I’m not supposed to ever understand anyway.
I believe in being a good friend…. supporting when support is needed and challenging when challenge is needed.
I believe that contentment can be found just being in the same room as someone I care about.
I believe that sometimes the best evenings have more silence than words spoken, even though communication is also really important to me.
I believe in valuing self-awareness but try not to be self-focused.
I believe I’d like to have a family someday to give myself to intentionally, but I don’t think that will mean 3 cute kids, a minivan and soccer practice.
My belief in a sovereign grace-extending God is central to my ideas about the world and my insistence on loving all people regardless of their faults and/or strengths.
However, when I say I’m “Christian” I fear that others will not understand. I don’t always vote republican. I intentionally live in a multi-income neighborhood. I drink socially. I’m not a virgin. I have close friends who are gay and lesbian.
I don’t believe we were put on earth to separate ourselves from the “secular.” I believe God created all of the world, which makes all things sacred.
I believe that God is endlessly and tirelessly pursuing me, and that there is nothing I can do to keep His love from me.
I believe faith and doubt can live in the same person, and honestly, I spent more time with doubt. Nevertheless, God has shown me time and time again the beauty that is His love.
I believe almost all men look great with a beard.
I believe that someday I might meet someone that wants to partner with me in life. Or maybe not. But either way, I believe I must continue to learn how to love the unlovable, work on my shortcomings and live my life as fully as possible.
It felt pretty vulnerable to read this on stage (and also to post it here!), but I’m trying not to live in fear, but rather live in grace.
Our more recent Void event, “Revival” was also quite powerful and well received…. looking forward to seeing where the group goes next.